Shhhh… You Don't Know Me

April 2, 2010

Day 5

Filed under: Daily Jabber,Food,Journey — Shhhh @ 9:09 pm
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Not bad, not bad!!  I spent the rest of yesterday on the couch, and nursed my hangover.  All was well in the eating department, and I managed to keep down a bunch of water, too.

Did I tell you my starting weight?  I cannot remember… it was 160.4.  Now, I do know that a few of those pounds were sodium weight, what with the four days of ridiculous eating before.  However, the last “real” weigh in I did, on the Wednesday before my food vacation was 158.  That was a new high that caused my freakout, leading to food vacation, leading to GAME ON.

I stepped on the scale today to see 155.6!!  Nice!!

I took a couple of pics of my food over the last few days:

Jammy Cheesy Cracker Goodness = 81 Calories

Avocado, Asiago, Sprouts = 316 Calories


I’m totally in love with the simplicity of this wrap right now.  And my excema loves the healthy oils.  Because of it’s simplicity, you can really taste how the asiago compliments the avocado.  So yummy.

Last night, I was craving pancakes, but I have no mix.  I’ve always used a mix, but it’s not a part of my healthy living lifestyle, so I have not bought any in about three years.  So I googled last night and found a simple recipe.  Holy shit, I had NO idea that making pancakes from scratch was SO easy!!  And WAY better than a mix!!  So light and fluffy, and I was even able to make them whole wheat!!

Here’s the recipe:

  • 1/2 cup flour
  • 1/2 cup whole wheat flour
  • 1 cup skim milk
  • 2 Tablespoons sugar (optional)
  • 1 teaspoon salt
  • 4 teaspoons baking soda
  • 2 eggs

Mix the wet, mix the dry, mix together.

I work tonight, doing the delivery job for the Chinese food place.  I’m counting that as my “ass of couch” time, since I do a lot more activity during that job than I do in my regular job.  I’m thinking I’ll find a healthy option for dinner tonight, but I’m not sure what yet.  Either shrimp with veggies, or Subway (which is right around the corner).  Each option is high in sodium, but I’ll stay within my caloric range.

Hey, I have a problem in another area.  Maybe someone in blogland can help me.  This is what I posted on Beagle World this morning:

My rescue beagle has separation anxiety in the worst way. He’s destroyed the carpeting in two rooms and the linoleum in the kitchen while we were discovering his limitations. He’s done major damage to the house and cannot be left alone at all. We bought a regular crate, but he learned to get out of it, and that’s when he destroyed the linoleum, scratching and digging to get out the door.

I went out and bought a wire crate, and this has been successful in holding him. But his anxiety about the crate is so insane that you can actually smell it. He emits an odor of anxiety when he knows he’s going in the crate. However, we cannot leave the house without him going in it. But when he’s in it he howls, pants, stinks, poops… it’s awful. For everyone, but especially for him. Do you see the catch 22?

Side note: I do work from home, so he doesn’t have to go in it often. I do, as much as possible, coordinate my shopping and appointments so that he does not have to be crated, but sometimes it is unavoidable.

Last night was possibly the final straw for my husband. While I was in the bathroom with the door closed, my husband stepped outside to have a smoke. Bentley lost it. He thought he was alone, I guess. He went to my bedroom door and started digging, and ripped up the carpet and destroyed it.

I don’t know what to do any more. My husband is at his wit’s end. I am this dog’s fourth owner. I know that if I give him up, he will end up dead or fiercely abused.

Frankly life has become crazy trying to work around this dog’s anxiety.

Please, I beg you, help me. Help me find the tools to deal with this. Point me in the direction I need to go to learn the tools to relieve this dog’s anxiety. I just don’t know what to do any more.

Can you help me?  Any ideas?


January 29, 2010

Food Porn

Filed under: Food,Uncategorized — Shhhh @ 2:30 am
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This is my current favourite breakfast.  Porridge oatmeal cooked with a half banana, then topped with either jam or apple sauce (apple sauce I also add cinnamon while it’s cooking), and a teaspoon of flax oil.

This is just an amazing wrap I had a couple days in a row.  Liverwurst, avocado and tomato with a squish of deli mustard.

I love food.  I mean TRULY love food.  Have you guessed that?

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