I’m seriously considering jamming on the Sun Run. It’s ridiculous how much pain I’m in with my stupid hip bursitis. Walking a 10k is not in my best interest. I know this, but still I struggle. I know that it would put me in severe pain. I know that to “heal” my bursitis I need to do NOTHING for two months. Then work the muscles around it, to strengthen it, then ease my way back up to walking, and maybe, if no pain, running. The whole process could take up to a year.
But I keep thinking I have to do this Sun Run. No reason. Just that I committed to it, and I do it every year. My heart breaks at the thought of the end of an era and the end of a streak… how will I get past it? How will I be okay NOT doing it?
It’s a fail. I know, I know, it’s not my fault, but it’s still a fail to me.
Are you curious? I am. Between my bursitis and the fact that I cannot train for my 10K cuz of my need for new shoes, I’m seriously considering this.
Jeez!! I’m shoveling food in faster than I can blink. And the whole time my mind is screamin “STOP STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING DON’T EAT THAT PUT THAT DOWN STOP”.
It’s 12:39pm, and so far I have eaten an openface egg sandwich, 8 vanilla creme cookies, a bag of smartpop with two tablespoons melted margarine, two doritos, a cup of potato/beet/porksteak lunch… and I think that’s it.
Barely. I’m so fricken grumpy right now. Must be pms. Seriously snarly over here.
Work is INSANE. I’m still trying to juggle all my jobs, and figure out a schedule that works for all. It’ll happen.
Eating was good until Wednesday. I dunno what happened there… 12 hour work days = shitty eating for one meal per day. Not terrible but definitely could have been better. There was no need to eat an entire small pepperoni pizza to myself yesterday.
Is it bad to eat chicken chop suey for breakfast? Veggies and lean chicken breast? *shrug* Whatever.
And now to go read some blogs… just wanted you to know I’m alive.
Here we go again! And I’m excited about it!
Great day of food and exercise today. Although, I was getting worried I wouldn’t be able to get out and run. I made it happen, though. I really have to start doing my workout in the morning, so I can get it over and done with.
And now, some food pics! Not all from today. I’ll caption the pics as I go.
Popcorn! It makes the world go 'round.
Liverwurst/Avocado/Spinach wrap & FF cottage cheese w blueberry peach butter
Blueberry Peach Butter!!
Breakfast of Champions
Decadent breakfast... *slurp*
The teenagers breakfast and lunch.
I had to make popcorn tonight, because after eating clean meals and snacks today I was only at 1084 calories. So popcorn it is!
Tomorrow is another busy day. Work in the morning. Commute into Vancouver for an afternoon meeting. Biggest Loser in the evening. Love it!!
I went to a funeral today. A woman I knew 15 years ago. She had Crones. Her mother officiated. It was one of the toughest funeral I’ve ever been to. Julii was 38. There were only three of us that were friends there. The rest was all family and family friends. It was so sad. Julii took herself out of society the last 12 years or so. I’d seen her once, six years ago.
I went because I felt I had to. She was in my life for a short time, but she was important to me. And it was important to me that I acknowledge her life. I’m glad I did, now that I know that no one else of our peer group went. I felt like I was representing. It was the right thing to do.
RIP Aunty Silly.
I got completely derailed yesterday. I had all my food planned, with no intention of leaving my house, except to walk the dogs.
Then my brother called in tears. A tree fell on his house, and he’s temporarily homeless. I felt so bad for him. I took him to lunch. He wanted Chinese. Then, I thought “that’s okay, I’ll just have a meatless salad for dinner, and skip the popcorn I had planned for family night”.
Then my delivery boss called me in a flap. Her guy didn’t come in. Can I work 4-7:30? It’s 3:40 right now. Okay, sure. I wrapped up the work I had put off to help my brother and ran out the door. Of course, I didn’t have time to pack a dinner, so I hit Subway… and that’s where it all went to hell. I got a six inch turkey sub, with the bread ripped out (like they show on BL) with no cheese, and only a swipe of mustard. But I also got two cookies and a diet pop. Ugh. Then I went home and ate the popcorn anyways, cuz I was kinda feelin “why not”.
This morning I decided on another day of “who cares”, and in fact I may take Saturday, too. But then I’m going to challenge myself to another ten days of “game on”. I did great on the last one, right?
I did jump on the scale this morning, but with all the sodium yesterday, I don’t think 158.4 was really a true number. On monday I was 154.6 or 154.8. I doubt I gained four pounds, considering I was on plan Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. So I’ll indulge for a day or two, and then I’m back in the saddle on Sunday as Day 1.
I’m still going to take pics though. I had an amazing breakfast sandwich that I had to take a pic of, which I’ll post later. 🙂
I had the best of intentions. I meant to take pics of ALL my food. But leaving eating until you are super hungry makes picture taking be the last thing on your mind. Whoops.
The day started as usual with breakfast (duh). Porridge with molasses and a bit of banana cooked into it. I have a weeks worth of containers in the fridge, if you think this is looking suspiciously familiar. Milk and vitamins finish it off for a total of 217 calories.
Breakfast of Champions
Lunch was a crackwrap. Oh delicious goodness!! Mine had liverwurst, avocado, tomato and spinach. Side of sliced pear rounded it out for 404 calories.
Mmmmm, crackwrap. *droooool*
Aaaaand that’s the last pic I took today. Pffft.
Snack was 1/2 cup yogurt with a kiwi and a quarter cup granola. 202 calories.
Dinner was a burger on a whole wheat Burger First bun, with a side of roasted olive oiled yam (holy deliciousness). 611 calories.
Total for the day? 1435 calories.
Workouts were a 35 minute aerobics tape from the 70s. LOL, it’s funny to watch for the hairstyles and small boobs. I also did ten minutes on the bike while Bentley spent some time on the treadmill getting rid of the underwear chewing gleam in his eye.
Work it off, Bentley!
Pouring rain out, so hells if I was going out in it. Wasn’t feelin it. I figure if the dog whisperer can do it, so can I. It at least takes the edge off his insanity. The treadmill cannot replace walks completely, but it sure is a great tool when I’m feeling walk lazy.
That’s all I got today.
Well, I had an interview last night, and I’ve been hired as personal assistant to the CEO of the company I was previously subcontracted to. With that comes a pay increase, a commission, a blackberry, and a company credit card. AND I’m only working 20 hours a week AND it’s still from home!! Nice!!
I was so good last night… John took me to a pizza place for dinner to hash out our agreement. I had an amazing spinach salad with goat cheese, roasted beets and walnuts, drizzled in a balsamic vinegrette. If I’d been really thinking, I would have had the dressing on the side, but I forgot. And I had one small piece of foccacia with oil, holy yummo. Overall, it was great options, with water and green tea to drink.
I really wanted a lovely pasta, but I held out. I didn’t get more than a 20 minute workout yesterday so I knew I didn’t have the calories to spend. I’m not sabotaging all my good work over the last ten days… HEY! I did it!! My ten day challenge!! I wonder what my weight loss was for the last ten days… shoulda weighed in this morning. *shrug* Oh well, I’ll stick to Friday morning as usual.
I’ve been planning and tracking my foods all day, and even taking pics, so I’ll update about that later. I have not worked out yet, but plan on a long walk with the doggies. Fatboy Weinerbutt needs to get out there. And the beagle needs to burn energy. It’s supposed to be pretty stormy this afternoon, so should be a great walk.
I found a cool link to get a snapshot of calorie intake: Here
Okay, I’ll be back later with food pics!
I took the beagle to Cliff Park and we did an hour fifteen on the trails. Mostly walking, with a bit of running. It was gorgeous, sunny, windy and beautiful.
I feel fantastic!!