My boss is getting plastic surgery to make her appear younger. She confessed to me why. She doesn’t want to be invisible. She has looked around and has seen that as women age, they are dismissed. She feels that as a successful business woman, hell if the world will dismiss her because of some wrinkles and droopy eyelids!
I know exactly what she means. Only I experienced it while fat. I knew what she was talking about, because I’ve lived it. Only I had no idea what had happened until the weight started coming off, and people actually started talking to me. Randomly. And now that I’m “hot” people talk to me ALL THE TIME.
I do worry for my mental health when my age starts showing so much that I turn invisible again. I’m an attention whore. Always have been always will be. If people don’t talk to me, I talk to them. I force them to acknowledge me, laugh with me, and when I walk away, I know that they have a good impression of me. For some reason this is so very important to me.
So what is going to happen when I’m old? Will I be one of those cougars with too much makeup, trying to look younger, and just ending up looking like a joke that people feel sorry for and post pics of on sites like PoW? Or will I be able to age gracefully? Will my ego implode?
Actually, one thing I’ve come to face is that I am always attractive (in my healthy body) to older men. Okay, I don’t get the young ones attention anymore, but 28+ still wolf whistles me. And as I get older, so will that demographic. I’ll be okay with that. I’m attracted to the look of older men anyways. I’m attracted to the sexuality of the younger, but hey, whatayado? I’m married anyways. It’s not about hooking up, it’s about feeling sexy.
I wonder how much my sign has to do with it. I am Scorpio after all. LOLOL